My goodness. It's been quite a while since I last wrote. I feel that I should make a list of things that have changed in life since my trip to Atlanta (which was the last time I wrote).
1) I graduated nursing school - finally
2) I got started on my new/last tattoo after a year of deliberating what and who - it's beautiful and I can't wait to finish it!
3) Bought a brand new 2014 Subaru Forester - Rosie - LOVE it
4) Saw my best friend and his brother who bought my old truck, JB - back to AZ for JB
5) Ruthie, my cousin who I was visiting in ATL passed away on Memorial Day - memory eternal...<3 I miss you every day.
6) Got to go to church camp and see my nieces and nephews - AMAZING day - can't wait til next year
7) Found out my doctor whom I've worked for for many years was moving fo KC - very sad
8) Got to go to Colorado for a wonderful and much needed vacation - SOOO ready to go back
9) My doctor left
10) I made the decision to start my own business with Arbonne International - CALL ME TO BOOK A PARTY OR A PRIVATE CONSULTATION/COFFEE TIME WITH ME! www.Arbonne.com
I suppose that's about it. But really there's so much more that can be added in between the lines. Some good - some bad - lots of happy - lots of sad. That's life though, right? We rise and fall and we go to sleep at night, nshallah, wake to do it all over again in the morning.
I've really had to work on patience this summer. Patience with the damn board of nursing The limbo of not knowing where I want to work - stay here - look elsewhere. And most importantly, learning to LET IT GO, for goodness sake, and just let life happen. I think to an extent, we all have control issues. LORD KNOWS I do. We like to know what's going to happen next. Where we'll be living. Where we'll be working. Will we have enough money to pay all the bills. We want to feel like we 'have a say' in whatever happens to us. But really, in most events, at least for me, there is so very little, if anything, I can do to create or change an outcome. But alas, I try my damnedest to make things work my way. Earth to me...that rarely happens.
That being said, letting go of that control is terrifying. It's living with the thought that someone or something else will be the one determining where my life goes. I don't like that. I'm told I worry too much. I stress too much. I over-react too much. But it all goes back to that feeling of being in control. And living with the comfort of NOT being in control is rough. I'm working on it. I think most of the time - as of late - I've been pretty good. I've definitely blown my top a few times this summer (thank you, board of nursing). But channeling Paul McCartney - LET IT BE. I'm trying.
to be continued...
